I fully believe Satan was aiming to make me a homosexual. Now, homosexuality grieves me. Sometimes when I really think about it or see a picture or something of a girl and girl together…it makes me feel so sad or nauseous. I’ve struggled with heterosexual lust for a very long time and I would appreciate any prayers regarding the situation. God revealed to me it’s a form of self worship, and looking for a comfort instead of the Comforter.
Now, I have made known in a past post that I willfully listened to some blasphemous and sexually deviant music. I have no idea how many things spiritually affected me from that wickedness. But I do know the first time I felt homosexual lust was after listening to a song about it. And I think there’s something to that.
Someone may think I’m crazy for believing pop music is dripping with demons, but after seeing how it had affected me in some crazy ways, I am positive that regardless if the singer knows it or not, that devils are using the message in this music to shipwreck faith, promote self worship, and increase sin.
I noticed that a certain pop singer had fangirls in their comments saying they are gay, lesbian, or bisexual…after watching a GIRL next to a man in a photo shoot. Or other various videos where this girl is acting fierce. She does not have a feminine essence anymore. It is demonic, jezebel, and I think there’s some witchcraft going on.
All these comments below had female profile pictures.
I’m somewhat of a detective… and I wanted to figure out why so many girls had this strange attraction to this girl. Not only lust, but even just an attraction to imitate. It is crazy and I was affected too.
I was looking for information and I came across a different kind of video…I listened to a song in the background of a video with lyrics like, “girls like girls like boys do…” The reason I thought the song was interesting was it’s hook was a girl just repeating boys in kind of an emotional and lovey dovey way. I’m all about boys…don’t get me wrong, and to girls who hear the song they are gonna hear “boys” a few times and their ears perk up…but then the song has nothing to do with boys but how girls like girls…like boys do and it is scary catchy…and sung romantically…mind twisting…and after I turned the video off… I started thinking…oh what if I like girls too?
At the time I believed homosexuality was a sin, but I had a curiosity like never before if I did feel what I felt. And not long after…I started getting feelings when I saw riske pictures of girls. I wondered if I was reprobate and cut off from God. I’d get thoughts even about the pop singer that started this mess, and I realized this was some dangerous stuff. I started crying out to Jesus and renouncing every lustful thought, feeling, or idea about women. I also renounced and rejected the demon behind it. I don’t want anyone thinking that a Christian can’t have a battle with a demon.
Guess what? The problem went away. It comes back, and the feelings can be soo deceptive, but I lay it down at the feet of Jesus…I ask Jesus to help me resist it (there’s a weird strong desire to find identity in the feelings) and He helps me with it.
I don’t care if everything inside of me desires this. It’s unnatural. It’s demonic. And the goal is that the devil wants the feelings to feel so real that people accept it. People accept the deception and own it. Once you accept the lie, it’ll take you down. I’m grateful God has given me the insight to realize that it’s demonic deception and if I fought every demon this hard as I fight homosexual feelings I’d be so much more free…
The big trap for people who deal with this…is to think heterosexual lust is “okay”. And that’s a HUGE lie. I’ve fallen for that one. I’ve felt relieved when that happened instead of feeling weird at looking at a beautiful female confused about how I feel.
Another thing…there’s nothing wrong with thinking someone of the same sex looks good. That’s not lust. So many are confused today because they think people are attractive looking. The devil is so smart… and we need to be wise about these things…avoid the world, because he is the god of this world waiting to kill anyone who he can trap.
BE VERY careful about what you become curious about. It may just be a web of lies to catch and destroy you if you don’t get out. If you are caught…cry out to Jesus.
I don’t think every person that gets homosexual feelings has got it from seducing spirits in pop music. Some people are abused. Some people choose. Some people are born with the feelings, most likely a generational curse…or some sort of demon. And according to Romans 1, it may be a sign of a reprobate mind. I do know that it is NOT something God has put into someone’s genes. It is not of God and nobody who practices this will enter into the Kingdom.
But I believe anyone who is struggling with these thoughts and feelings can find victory in Jesus…regardless of how much you struggle. Even if you have had sexual relations with a member of the same sex there is forgiveness in Jesus Christ and stop it. Find freedom, victory, and healing. God knows this generation is full of deception about gender and sex, so I believe He’s gonna be sooo gracious to anyone who repents of this sin when the culture so encourages you to be a sexual deviant.
This isn’t my favorite thing to talk about, but I wanted to share my story. I believe 100% that there is some strong witchcraft in a LOT of secular music and cutting it off completely was the wisest choice I made. Jesus KNOWS what we need…I know our flesh gets scared and avoidant of His commands but He is amazing and such a beautiful God. When He delivers you and lets you see things as they are, you realize that He is the ONLY wise King! Eternal, immortal…let Him be all glory forever…amen.
I got problems to face and things to let go of, but praising Jesus in this area will help me to slay the dragons, crush the scorpions, and snakes…
If people think I’m crazy… about this stuff…I know a lot of Christian girls my age who battle the same thing. This random lust and thoughts they don’t want but they feel like it’s them. Please, older generation…if you have grandkids…children…nieces and nephews warn them of seducing spirits in secular music that open minds to evil. And the demons are trying to seduce people my age into bisexuality. Many of my classmates in high school were bisexual. It’s all wicked deception and confused people.
Anyways…praise God and God bless!